I guess we're all in the same boat. The pain overwhelms what everyone else calls life and we call hell. We do everything the doctors tell us, surgery after surgery. The pain never gets better. They (doctors)say live your life around the pain, like that can be done... Then everyone starts looking at you like a addict but no one cares that the pain paralysis you, that you cry til you can cry anymore. And you beg God for mercy, Please let this pain kill me but it never comes. suicide seems to be the only way but you think about the people you love and you fight for one more day...Doctors don't understand or they don't care...I'm sorry about that...I don't know if talking helps but I'm here, holding on only because I'm too much of a coward to do it myself...