I know how you guys feel and contemplate suicide quite often. I have severe sciatica, a bunk right knee and as of recent and whats really putting me over the top neck/shoulder pain for the last 5 months. The knee I can live with, the Sciatica and neck/shoulder pain or about to drive me into the ground. Like you guys the only thing stopping me from going through with it is my family and friends. They would be devastated. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to do my job and if I lose my income I'll have no choice but to go on unemployment for a year. At that time I'll try my absolute best to do some physio to help myself and if still not better after a year then it very well could be the end. I wish you all the best of luck. Life certainly doesn't seem fair but I guess it is what it is.